Kick Rocks

Something hits you when you turn 35 and your single with no children (yet) living with your parents.  Yes this is my life.  I swear to you my younger self would kick my butt.  It's almost like I've given up a part of me to help others and now here I set just wondering how did I get here how did I mess up.  To thy ownself be true.  I was part of this team this squad but now I'm just all alone.  I can't seem to keep a relationship with any amount of purpose or time for that matter.  Okay the facts the last relationship I was in was 2007 that's so nuts what's happening to me.  The true unfairness of life is so easy to be blamed.  I'm tired of not moving forward, I feel like half the time I'm running in circles.  I can't keep running circles anymore it's time for a change.

It's been such a long time that I have had the freedom to just write.  Yes I said have the freedom because I can write but mostly its just been school papers.  Which are very draining and I find myself overwhelmed at times.  So I decided to increase my time on the blogger world of writing.  I always find it so much easier to just write on here with no problems the creativitiy just flows and something magical happens.  Perhaps it's the no rules thing, you guys aren't into my missed spelled works, or senctencs structure.  Your only interested in my thoughts, dreams, goals, emotions.  So I can give you that....

I'm a working girl that has dreams like you won't believe.  My heart has changed so much over the years of me starting this blog. I formed some friendships that have been a blessing to me in so many ways.  Also I've let some friendships and loves go.  I'm making a differences and not because of some magical connections just because I dare to look outside myself to see the bigger picture.  Have you dared to look outside lately to see how things are going, are there changes you should be making to make thing better in your life.  If so Do Them,  a wise lady by the name of Cindy Trimm re quoted, "If it can be done today then Do it".  Be in the Doing of things don't waite becaues now is the time soooo I write it NOW!! Enjoy your day.

Senior Year Of College

Okay I have like two mins to tell you how this fall semester of my Senior year is going.. WHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOO.  Its so much nothing like I have ever image, but the most wonderful thing is I am doing it.  I'm doing well besides one class that needs some extra study time, but full-time student and full-time work.  It has me moving.  The only thing I can think of at this moment is I can do ALL THINGS THROUGHT CHRIST!!

Living, Growing and Sharing

Part One of Living, Growing and Sharing
My life has so may turns in it right now, but I do see the hand of God thoughout my life.  Imagine that I at the age of 32 yrs old have finally mastered the word NO.  Not in a mean way but in a me way, I say no now to take care of me and boy let me tell you heads are sure to turn of course.  But really won't they turn even if I said yes and than failed at it.  Yup you guessed right they sure will. 

He means laughter

What looks like something you want may just not be the thing you need.  I feel like my eagerness for a relationship has got me in a pickle, yes a pickle.  It's funny how quickly you can get use to someone checking in with you sharing with you and is all about you.  He's a man that knows what he want, but for me if he pushes to hard on making this relationship something that it is clearly not then I can't help my actions to push back.. Now all of sudden my pushing back is a problem.  Let me say this clearly I not looking for Mr. Perfect, I'm working and praying for My Issiah, who is for me, because I saw him in a dream!

Now its a fitness challenge

So my job has a fitness challenge and I sign up.... I know, I know that last time I totally bomb out and didn't do much of anything, but this is different. See me and my co-worker get to work out together and so far I just finished out the second day.  So far it's going good so it seem that -30 is on the way. P.s I'm counting calories too.
 Monday, March 18th
Workout:
-Dances 15mins
-Walked and Ran: 25mins

Tuesday, March 19th
Workout:
-Walked and Ran: 18mins

My Awaking March 12th

This is your Wake Up Call Good morning to you!! Did every feel like the more closer to God you come the harder things seem to be? It's Tuesday and it time to think about being humble as God's people and just simply being ready to repent. Knowing and understanding that things may happen but God is still God and when you feel its time to repent in your heart you need to at that moment, no waiting okay. :) So take a listen to a YouTube video (48:58mins) by T.D. Jakes it Called Saul's Suicide.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Ib0Y-xZHbU&feature=youtube_gdata -