Bitter- Sweat

It's seems that tomorrow I have another funeral to got to. It seems unreal but I felt I should go even tho I only met her onces but feeling conected to my deep family tree I felt compelled too go. So I called my cuzins trying to understand our line in the family tree only to find out that this is his Grandmother oh how bitter sweet now. The feelings and clear wanting that come from a funeral are all so very scary. How does one deal with this many deaths in a row... Well I just haven't thought about it, only at the time that I am in the moment than I let it go. It's like at first it was hard for me to even sleep at night, but than I started to listen to God's word and it gave me peace. Peace in the storm.